19.7.09
looking for dance instructor

what: to conduct hip hop dance class. one class per hour. one hour includes warm-up, choreography etc.
who: southview primary school primary 4 students (at choa chu kang)
when: mondays 7.30-8.30am, 9-10am, thursdays 7.30-10.30am. 6 weeks beginning from the last week of july
how much: $50 per hour. total = 5hrx6weeksx50/hr=$1500

enquiries can drop me an email at ruisi_bsb@hotmail.com

feel free to spread the word. it's rather urgent! cus i've chosen my modules and i can only teach on tuesdays and wednesdays. it was supposed to start like end of june when schools reopened. but due to h1n1, the whole thing is postponed and it's going to eat into my school time.

i have a major desire to bitch about a certain retail shop but i have better things to do at this moment. SCIENTIFIC READINGS!!!! which are so damn difficult to read. my honours project officially starts tmr! time to look hot in a lab coat. hurhur.
a silly moment at 22:48  
15.7.09
when i was younger, i thought boys are stupid.
now that i'm older, i know boys are stupid.
a silly moment at 14:00  
12.7.09

I never needed your corrections

On everything from how i act to what i say

i never needed words, i never needed hurt,

i never needed you to be there everyday


I'm sorry for the way i let go

Of everything i wanted when you came along

But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated

I know next to you is not where i belong


And it's a little late for explanations

There isn't anything that you can do

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,

so you will listen when i say baby


I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way

I get the final say


BecauseI don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush
a silly moment at 18:32  
10.7.09
kidney failure?

disclaimer: this is not a jibe at people who are truly sick.

i went for moe medical checkup in may, after exams. but something doesn't seem to be right. there were constant calls from moe asking if i had gone for the checkup. i did not get my x-ray films back while most other scholars did during the meet-up session. these few days i've been getting mysterious calls from an unknown number. i managed to receive the call this morning like at 8plus am. i slept at 5plus and hardly slept. in my sleepy state, i recalled the person on the other hand telling me that i have to go down to the hospital for another urine test.

at the hospital, the nurse explained to me that there was blood and very high level of proteins in my previous urine sample. yes, she emphasized on the 'very'. so i have to undergo this creatinine clearance test to test my kidney functions. such an irony, i actually learnt about this in pharmacokinetics. i have to collect my pee for 24 hours with this huge orange container and then they will measure the creatinine level of it. in people with kidney failure, their glomerular filtration rate drops so creatinine level in urine drops also. but i can only do it a week after my period end and my period's not here yet. so that's a long long nagging wait to find out if i'm okay :s i need to take another blood test too.

i'm regretting eating foods high in sodium and not drinking much water. my rice is always gravy laden and i like thick sauces. plus all the other unhealthy stuff that i adore but are detrimental to my health :(

i'm not trying to curse myself and i'd rather be in the pink of health. you know, though i grumble about my age sometimes but i'm still young and have a rather bright future before me. being able to active, dance, earn lots of money, spend time with my family and friends, have my own car and house, get married, have children.... blah blah blah would be lovely.

BUT IF
my kidneys really pang seh me. maybe my true love will appear and offer his kidney to me. we'll be a perfect match (pun so intended) and we'll live happily ever after :)

come to think of it, of all the korean/taiwanese dramas that i've watched, nobody gets kidney failure. they usually get leukemia. i have a theory why that is so. with leukemia, the poor girl turns skinny and pale -> a perfect damsel in distress. even the loss of hair with chemotherapy is cool because all the cute beanies and other headgears makes her oh-so-adorable. with kidney failure, however, she'll be jaundiced with toxins building up in the body and grossly swollen due to water retention. it's not going to be a pretty sight. and only megan fox looks good with funky machines that comes alive. i would look like crap being attached to a dialysis machine that keeps me alive.

OKAY. this is demoralising. i am seriously rather worried.

-crossing my fingers-

so, BE NICE TO ME.

you'll miss me when i'm gone.

so morbid, but shit does happen :(
a silly moment at 16:19  
4.7.09
what an eventful week :)
monday. asian youth games performance. it's finally overrrrrrrrrr! :) the routine is like so deeply etched in my muscle memory that i don't bother to consciously think about my steps even when dancing. minus the extensive waiting time, the whole experience was actually fun.



tuesday. jurong pointing with goosiex. must finish digging out the bargains during the gss in this heartland mall :) hahas. lunch at ichiban sushi, which is part of the japanese food street. japanese food hardly fails. maybe except for that cheapo one at clementi. i think it's called sumo house or something. grrr. bad memories.

wednesday. blast class. omg, i died. hahahas. the music is so fast. you miss a step and you're gone. but it was fun :) i ate like 7 or 8 durian puffs brian brought to blast class. they were addictiveeeee! so yummy. didn't join the girls for BITCHFEST because my mum cooked my dinner alreadys. supposed to have tuition but it was cancelled. but all's goodddddd. went down to jurong west to get durians. it's the durian season. durians are aplenty due to the hotter climate and more fruiting as a result.

the whole row of make-shift tents selling tropical fruits, mostly durians, rambutans and mangosteens. i love mangosteens too! we were at this stall where durians were in baskets and some around the floor. my dad picked one up from the ground, smelt it and went 'this one not bad eh'. i picked one up from the ground smelt it and thought to myself 'this one not bad too'. then this guy came and told us that those were the durians he painstakingly picked out from the mountains of durians. hahas. so embaressing.

we ended up buying 6 durians and finishing them all up that night. shiok! :D


thursday. the masque event at butterfactory. my fake eyelashes were woohoo! :) make-up done by ZA sponsors. a couple of self rehearsals at the smu studio before we make our way done to one fullerton. carol came up to me after the one and only full dress rehearsal at butterfac and told me the rehearsal was 'GOOD'. so happy :) but i have noooooooo recollection of what happened during the real show. everything happened in the blink of the eye. i hope i didn't screw up. zzz.


the other catwalking girls :) me and my damnnnnnnnnnn sexy costume. it's almost entirely barebacked cannnnn. hahahas.


sleepover at eva's mansion. i didn't expect there to be food since it was past ten when i reach. but the gorgeous people were midway through steamboatttt! what a stomach-happy surprise. hahas. waiting for pictures to be uploaded. the food was lovely. like complete with shabushabu. love love. i ate so much that my tummy was like hugeeeeeee.


we celebrated rachel's 21st birthday. hope you like the presents. many well wishes on your adulthood. hahas. have fun working at gucci babe :))


sleepover actually kind of failed. because so many people fell asleep. haha. i knocked out at about 4 plus. LET'S HAVE ANOTHER SLEEPOVER WHEN WE PLAY LAME GAMES AND HAVE HEARTTOHEARTTALKS OKAYYYY. PLUS BITCHING :D preferably on a weekend when people don't have to go to work the next day. CHICKEN WINGS ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL IS A MUST FOR CCC and associates!! hahas.


i haven't been to gym for like 2 weeks. and the good food i've been having makes me feel like a blob of lipids. need to have an exercise regime planned out for next week -determined-
update on the little fishes we caught from qian hu: THEY ALL DIED -.-" tsk tsk. within 3 days. my mum say because they are bored to death unlike in the long kang where they try to evade capture. hahas.
a silly moment at 18:49  
ruisi
thirteen august baby
ruisi_bsb@hotmail.com
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